Happy New Year!

It's actually been the new year here for a few hours now, but I just woke up :)

20 years ago today, my parents got a neat New Year's gift: me! Yes, I really was born January 1st. Such luck has followed me throughout life leading up to my life now, which I couldn't ask for anything more. Well, maybe a small portable heater. Even in Spain it's a little cold. haha!

I do not have much of an idea for a Resolution per se, so I guess I'll just strive to be a happier person! Given the fact that I have depression (which is mostly subdued anyway), this is a step in the right direction!

Have an awesome day everyone!
-Claire S.

Oh, and a special shout-out to one of my best friends (and certainly my best guy friend) Devin for telling me happy birthday literally as I was waking up. Forever and always <3

A Very Merry Christmas

So my friend Candice (the friend who I am staying with) asked me if I wanted to go back to her friend's house in Spain (the mainland, not Ibiza) for a little Christmas party. I said sure, of course, but I got waaay more than I thought I would.

I mean that in a good way. I actually got something that most people don't get in their lifetime: a Christmas Orgy!!

Yeah I couldn't think of a better way to introduce that. But it was super awesome and fun, and before you start saying I shouldn't do that and/or I'm a whore, you should probably know several things about sex and me:
1) I've been deathly afraid of it since I was about 16 and almost never do it
2) Sex is very healthy for you
3) I knew everyone there
4) I've been having anxiety problems recently which this totally helped to relieve
5) Regular or hard sex helps you in many ways, from stronger immune systems to healthier figures (both are useful given my profession and how health relates to it)
6) It can make you feel better, both physically and emotionally (the latter is especially helpful for a girl with depression)
7) Best of all, I'm happy about it!

And, if you really know me, you know I could easily triple that number of replies :)

And, on top of that, we all had an awesome meal (hours before, of course) and TONS of fun and laughter, mainly because we were with friends and having a good time (even excluding the awesome orgy). AND (I can just keep going haha) nothing went wrong! Like at all! No drugs, violence (well, maybe a little, but in a good way), alcohol...

...Really the only problem I have is I need to replace my awesome pink shirt again. I always get the exact same one because it is always the most comfortable shirt I have ever owned, but it never takes well to bodily fluids. I don't know why.

Amo! Y Feliz Navidad!!
Claire S.

PS Why is Google telling me to say happy birthday to people I don't know? Maybe they added me on G+, I don't know.

PPS Yes I speak Spanish too. I have to, along with the other languages I know well enough to communicate like a foreigner (which I am).

Wow!

Ok, this is way cool. I almost never check my blog overview, but check this out!

See, I do have a lot of friends all over the world! Ok, I know, a lot are probably just Google search mishaps, but still this is neat!

Ok, I'm done being an Internet noob now ;-)

Laska!
Claire S.

I'm in Spain!!

Actually, I've been in Spain for a short while now and I'm settled down enough to write a blog post. :)

Why am I in Spain? Mainly so that I can go from this:

To this:

If you get my point.

I'm staying with a friend while I'm here, which will probably be... well, I guess the next flight from here to Prague when it's not cold and snowy. I can only imagine how much parking will be, though. I was stupid and parked Ferry in the Prague International parking area, so I'm totally expecting to pay several thousand Kc. I really want the Czech government to use Euros; it sounds better to use a few hundred euro than it does a few thousand koruna, doesn't it?

In other news...

So I was wrong again. It was mutual, but I broke up with my boyfriend. I love sex, but not that much, haha! We're still kinda together I think. I'm never entirely sure since I almost always end up being around who I break up with for a long time. Except for Morgan's brother, but let's not get into that.

Also, Spain is beautiful around Christmas time!! I mean, it's nothing like Prague (it's too awesome to talk about in one post), but I totally love it here! Maybe around Christmas I'll fly back to Prague with a few friends and I'll blog pictures. Though, that is really expensive because flights around that time are WAY expensive.

Interesting news: I'm not married. I said I was on Facebook for whatever reason, but believe me, I'm not. Probably Morgan messing with me... I am single, if you're into bi-sexual redhead model-musicians who travel a lot ;-) I can't imagine that's a large market, haha!

I guess that's really all I've got for now.

Laska!
Claire S.

BTS Modeling

I'm getting complaints of people saying they haven't seen pictures of me around even though I say I'm working on shoots. I just want to set one thing straight: very little modeling is in front of the camera.

"Claire, that's all models do is look hot in front of a camera!" You obviously don't know the industry if you say that. Here is how a normal shoot goes, from start to finish: Have an idea/need for a model, find a model (usually a wannabe), measure him/her, audition him/her (by this point, out of 100 initial people, you might have 3 left if you are lucky), plan the shoot, make sure the model is okay with it, sign contracts, set up scene and equipment, shoot, and after that it's all post-production. I may have left a few things out.

So, where do I come in? One thing a lot of people forget is that the best way to get into an industry is to be an assistant. Of course, there are pros and cons to this, but it works. It helps to find an agency instead of just a small team because there's more to do. Legally, I am an advisor at MC. Actually, I am an assistant to everyday tasks who gets paid fairly cheaply and occasionally models. Morgan, on the other hand, works at the same place but is a photographer. Legally. You get my point.

What do we do? Help during setup, judge during auditions, but most of all get involved in what is going on. The more people we meet, the more connections we have, and the better chance we have of doing something other than picking up trash on a set. I've literally done... I think 4 shoots since I started working here. I've WORKED on about 50. The difference? Well for one, where you are in relation to the camera lens is proportional to your pay. Secondly, and most importantly, you meet people who can help you to your goal, mine being a VS model.

Let's talk about goals in this industry. I know I'm not tall enough and have too much visual bust and waist to be a VS model, but I keep aspiring to that. Why? Because it gives purpose. I could just as easily be a biochemist earning enough to replace Ferry every year, but I don't. I'm doing what I like. That should be your main goal: do what you want to do. My parents always frowned on me saying that, but it's true. There's no point in doing what you hate if you can be happy... if less financially secure.

A New Leaf

There’s a new leaf upon the Tree
A thousand, thousand have been before
In the life of this great tree
Yet, the Tree rejoices, and is glad
For there is a New Leaf upon the tree

-Adrian Wait

My life has taken a turn for the better (for once, haha)! Well, I hope it's for the better. It didn't start well.

I met this guy (you know where this is going by now, I'm sure) at a club, and... to make the story short, I woke up with him, which is when I realized he was HOT! It was awkward for obvious reasons, but after he woke up we went to breakfast with Morgan, got to know each other better, and now we are dating!

I'm writing this the next morning, and I noticed something: I never got his name or anything! He knows where I live, and I know where he lives, but that's it.

Anyway, so he's a musician like me, and smart, too. He was thoroughly impressed by my choice of transportation (we travelled in Ferry after breakfast because Morgan had a date with a song) and my career. He actually said 'I think I love you' after we decided to jam in the studio for a while (me on violin, of course).

If you know me really well, you know I've had problems with men in my life. Hopefully there will me no problems. I hope I can be a happy tree with this new leaf having turned over. Figuratively, of course :)

Laska!
Claire S.

PS yes, I love Adrian Wait, despite his overall darkness and unpopularity.

I'm Alive!!

Hi!

So I have been neglecting... well, the Internet, really. I'm never on Twitter, haven't posted here in two months, and Facebook is, well, a mess anyway with all the app feeds, haha!

I have actually gotten emails from people asking if I'm okay or even alive (though if I was dead I don't know why you would email me...), and the answer is yes! Obviously, since I'm blogging...

I don't know, lately the last few months have really made my depression show. I've been unsure of stuff and made this exact face, :/ a lot. I think Ferry is the same because he's been having problems lately too. But, of course, with 2 kilometers of mile in him, any minor problem pretty much means disassembling the car.

I am just guessing, I can't stand waiting in automotive waiting rooms. I'd rather walk around town than do that, which is what I mostly did.

I've also been less active, which given my profession can be bad. Thankfully, all I eat is sandwiches and calorie equivalent foods (which is sad because I'm a good chef), so it wasn't much of an issue :)

But yeah, I'm okay, just... depressed. I talked to my mom about it and she said it could be due to either being away from home and close friends or the seasons. I'll blame both, but I hope it's not the last one. I have a close friend with a seasonal condition where he gets "bored yet lazy and can't find any kind of motivation for anything." :/

Laska!
Claire S.

PS: I'll leave on a happy note.

:)
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(supposed to be a smiley over an eighth note)